What If You Don’t Like the Season of Life You’re In?

Don't Get Caught Unprepared
Don't Get Caught Unprepared

This week I’m sharing a post I wrote back in May 2016. In this season of my life, I’m in the process of preparing my home to sell and packing to move to an apartment. I’m so looking forward to having a smaller space to clean and maintain! BUT I’m not there yet. You know that place: in between where you want to go and where you are. It can be a frustrating, tedious, anxiety-provoking situation that is totally necessary to transition to the new place.

But still we don’t want to be in this place, so we struggle like a baby bird trying to break out of it’s shell. I needed to hear this “Half-Way” song again! I needed to be reminded of the comfort and care available to me through Jesus. Maybe you need reminded also. Maybe you need to hear this message as well, whether for the first time or the thousandth time. 

My Season of Life

I don’t like my life season right now! I’m in that strange place where my youngest child is sixteen and the rest are adults. I haven’t been able to work for three years due to multiple health problems and I’m divorced. I’m really okay with the divorced/being single thing, as I’ve done that for ten years. Parenting young adults is easier in many ways even though the stakes are higher.  I just have to be available to listen and assist as requested and pray that God’s will in their lives will come to pass. But this chronic-physical-illness and daily-pain place in life is NOT where I want to be!

I don’t desire to be in this season of my life.  I don’t like it!  It just doesn’t seem fair.  Why do people get illnesses that don’t go away?  Why do I have to be unable to work due to these illnesses?  Why do I have to experience daily pain? I’ve always been the one holding everything together; helping others and being the caregiver.  It’s uncomfortable being on the receiving side. Why is it so hard to let others do for me?  I’ve been spinning my wheels and driving myself batty trying to sort these questions out and find answers that would make a difference to me.  I wanted meaning in my health challenges and pain.

Seasons of Life

When my six children were little, somewhere I read or heard that when my kids were young, I was in the “season of life” where my children needed me the most.  This was not the time for me to undertake time-intensive projects like going to college or working full-time.  This understanding helped me to focus on the little people I chose to stay home for. It helped me cope with occasional feelings of frustration or regret that I had placed my nursing career on hold for them.

Suddenly, hearing the following song reminded me of the “seasons of life” concept and God gave me a revelation!

“Halfway” by 3 for 3

[Verse 1]
Sometimes I don’t think I’m gonna make it
The world around me is a little too weighted
And my shoulders a little too jaded to carry it all on my own
So hard thinking about tomorrow
Where I wanna be
How far I have to go
When I need a little strength to borrow
I know

[Chorus]
You keep my heart beating when it’s broken
You keep me on a move
Even on the darkest day
I know you will never fade
You’re gonna finish everything you started
You’re gonna see it through
Even when the seasons change
You don’t love me
You don’t love me halfway

[Verse 2]
And when you give you give without holding back
When you love you love with everything you have
And when I fall you’re always in the aftermath lifting me out of the dust
To you there’s no such thing as distance
You can take me anywhere even in an instant
But you must want me to go through this so I can trust
So I can trust

[Chorus]
You keep my heart beating when it’s broken
You keep me on a move
Even on the darkest day
I know you will never fade
You’re gonna finish everything you started
You’re gonna see it through
Even when the seasons change
You don’t love me
You don’t love me halfway

[Verse 3]
In a world that’s failing
You remain consistent
Full long pursuit
Even when I’m resistant
On a bad day never asked to meet me halfway
Stretchin out your hand give me strength to walk your plan
And keep my heart beatin even after the music stops
Everlasting love that leads me high and it never drops
Got on the cross to bleed for me and to bleed for you
Yeah you started this I have no doubt that you’re gonna see it through

[Chorus]
You keep my heart beating when it’s broken
You keep me on the move
Even on my darkest days
I know you will never fade
You don’t love me halfway
You keep my heart beating when it’s broken
You keep me on a move
Even on the darkest day
You don’t love me
You don’t love me halfway
You’re gonna finish everything you started
You’re gonna see it through
Even when the seasons change
You don’t love me
You don’t love me halfway

Takeaway

God reminded me that this is the time of my life when HE wants to take care of me!  I’ve heard Him whisper these words before. I need to stop stressing and fussing and relax into His loving arms.  I need to trust and believe that He loves me all the way even when I can’t work.  He doesn’t value me like the world does.  He doesn’t value YOU like the world does.  Even when we feel useless and less than others who are “productive members of society” we are still God’s beloved sons and daughters.

I’m learning in this hard place that I can still be a conduit for God’s love to others.  I’m learning that I need to do everything I do for the glory of God and not the praise of people.  I’m learning that I’m forgetful and need daily communication with Jesus, or else I wander into discouragement.  I’m also slowly learning that all I really need is Jesus. He is completely dependable all the time. I have to remind myself daily that no matter how I feel, He’s taking care of me. When I look around and count my blessings, I can see that He has been caring for me.

How about you? Can you see God’s provision for you in your season of life? If you have been struggling, like I have, with your season of life, I pray you will find inspiration and comfort in these words and especially in our Savior Jesus!

Psalm 23

23 1-3 God, my shepherd!

    I don’t need a thing.
You have bedded me down in lush meadows,
    you find me quiet pools to drink from.
True to your word,
    you let me catch my breath
    and send me in the right direction.

Even when the way goes through
    Death Valley,
I’m not afraid
    when you walk at my side.
Your trusty shepherd’s crook
    makes me feel secure.

You serve me a six-course dinner
    right in front of my enemies.
You revive my drooping head;
    my cup brims with blessing.

6 Your beauty and love chase after me
    every day of my life.
I’m back home in the house of God
    for the rest of my life.

The Message (MSG)

What life season are you in? How do you feel about it? Kathy

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I'm a writer, disabled registered nurse, and former home school parent of 6 children ages 19 to 31.

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